MY brother, Zhixian works in a pharmaceutical company. He's a Process Tech. One fine morning, he happened to have a casual chit-chat with one of his colleagues, a Lab Chemist. This chemist actually concocted a chemical solution of which he claimed to be able to improve car engine performance. Zhixian tried it on the car.
I tested it myself and indeed Rushie performs. At this very moment, I started asking myself: "Will this last? Can Zhixian get more of this?" Soon, I'm awared that my mind is calling for more power. Am I wrong to think that way?
Well, Human Beings is a rare kind of species in this solar system, that is consistently looking out for their self-interest, always wanting to expand their influence, always asking for more ... I guess I'm just exhibiting the traits, that's all.
But as Spiderman believes, "Great power comes with great responsibility". Asking for more power is not wrong, but to use it with care and responsiblity is another issue. How often has people start making mistakes as soon as they obtained power? Napoleon, Hitler, Pot Pol, Stalin, Saddam Hussein, etc, you name it ... However, on the other hand, we do see positive examples like Winston Churchill, Ghandi, Roosevelt Aung San Suu Kyi, etc.. They made use of power for the greater good of humankind; They showed another kind of leadership called servant leadership. Power was used to serve not to control.
As I began to explore deep into the defination of power, I did realise one thing is that power that originated from greed or ill-intention, is undesirable. It gets you to nowhere. Hey, I wanted the car to perform so that he can improve my car fuel consumption and save money. Hmm.. that's absolutely justifiable, right? But imagine, a stupid Ah Beng somehow got hold of this chemical and start driving as if he's Schumacher. OH DEAR!! Crash n Burn!
Now, I wondering if my initial decision of becoming a future dealer has got to do with power? Was I looking for more money or was I looking for more knowledge? Both call for power ultimately. The only difference is that the former originated from greed while the latter is not. Ask me not, which side I'm on now. I'm confused too. I used to think that I'm hungry for knowledge. I wanted to know more about this trade. I simply wanted to pratice what I have learnt in University. But as days go by, I feel like I'm getting nowhere. I began to be hungry for money more now.
Was my decision based on the hunger for power to earn more money from the start? I started questioning myself; Or was the old me killed the same way, Colonel-Doctor Irina Spalko did, while her "alien friend" was feeding her with tons of knowledge, in the movie - Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull? I absolutely have no answer now.